Dear Xanga,
I just told Facebook that I was cheating on it with you. So far, it's taking it better than I expected.
I'm still so happy I came back to you. You're so forgiving!
Here's something I've noticed since you've been back in my life:
Whats so great about you is that through you, we can see into peoples' hearts and minds.  Instead of seeing someone for their friend count, the number of pictures they have tagged of themselves, how many people write on their wall, who can come up with the most clever status, etc., you make a way for none of that to matter!!
Facebook has become a lifestyle - but really what is happening is our generation's lives are diminishing.  Hours upon hours are spent doing what exactly? Looking at peoples' profiles - I could tell you so many things about people I barely know just because of their profiles. I don't want to know about them from reading that! I want to get to know them by talking to them!! People can be so extremely fascinating, but somehow I'm losing interest in building relationships with other people - it's not that I don't want to, it's that Facebook makes us skip a step. So we have all of these awkward relationships that aren't exactly friendships, but we know each other better than acquaintances.  Facebook barely allows for creativity.  Sure, I could write a fancy lil note, I could make my profile picture something really neat - but that is ALL that you are!!! Look at you, Xanga.  Let's make everyone's creativity show through you - wow what a great idea you had there!
Yet everyone quit you to go make friendless acquaintanships.
And I did too!! And the thing is, I will never completely quit. It has developed such a huge role in society now that I'm unable to quit.  After all, that's how I get all my information from clubs that I'm in.  When are we meeting again? - oh, it's on Facebook.

Before I get too frustrated, I think I'll go ahead and change the subject.
I switched majors yesterday.  I went from International Business & Marketing major with a minor in Spanish, to Professional Writing major with a minor in Business. I've never been so excited!!

Christmas is on its way.  Good ol' Christmas.  The season of giving.  Yet people are always so selfish - get me this, get me that.  I am too, I'm not gonna try to lie about that.  It's just interesting.  We're lucky though, to be able to share gifts and decorate the house, the yard, the trees. Apparently my parents decorated all crazy, I can't wait to see everything!!
I asked for one thing this Christmas - Chacos eeee!!! Usually I have a super long list and I want - no, NEED - every item on it.  This year, I want to be surprised! I've never been so confident that my family will choose extremely fulfilling gifts.  They've figured out my degree of weirdness without a doubt.
Christmas shopping was so fun this year!!! It's never fun, really.  It's usually my sister and I wandering aimleslly around the mall, searching for something that our parents will like.  We usually end up going with what our mom picked for us to get our dad, and something that our mom doesn't like.  This year, they made it easy by being super specific, and somehow inexpensive! So I got to buy them an extra little thing or two that I know they will love.  Christmas seems different this year.  With all of our grandparents gone now, and both my sister and I away from home, it seems that every time our family gathers, it is closer knit.  Family is much more appreciated now than ever before.  Wow, being away from my family has been one of the craziest things - I never expected that! Last year, I was so ready to leave home.  And here I am, longing to go back. I think in the past year, or even the past four months, our family has become stronger and more caring. What a blessing.
I'll be heading back in 35 hours or less! Woo!!!

And now I'll leave you with Erin Bode's "Send Me Up A Sign."
Jazz and Blues are perfect for the Winter season. Enjoy!

dear xanga,
i never thought the day would come that i would want you back.
but here it is.

who would have thought that i would ask you back into my life when i'm in college?
it's almost time for finals and this is what i'm doing instead of studying.
i don't want to study.
not much has changed since i left you.. (actually a lot has changed but i haven't at all, really.)

oh xanga i'm sorry i ever betrayed you.
please accept the welcome back in a tight embrace.

forever yours,
lindsay

today, i whistled by blowing out for the first time in my life.

it was magical.

i just hope i don't forget how to do it.

 

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by the way, i could whistle before - just by sucking in.
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